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[03/28/13: I miss you grandpa]

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by 보드카 레인
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I like the gesture of silent contemplation. Sometimes when we close our eyes we look like we are suffering, but inside we are experiencing spiritual joy.
— Otecki (artist) 
Anonymous inquired:
hey annie! can i ask what laptop you use?

hi there sure you can!

I use a dinosaur Dell laptop but I’m hoping to get a MacBook laptop before I leave for university this fall c:

Anonymous inquired:
Dear Annie, I don't know how to study anymore. I keep on procrastinating and worse is ill be taking a licensure exam this september. I so hate myself. Ive got no motivation at all though i have big goals in life and a good family supporting me. I know my weaknesses its just i got no action. Help? Seriously. Im sorry. I just dont know where to run to.

Mmm… I have an idea on how you must be feeling.  I know how tough it is to have no motivation yet be fully aware of your goals and know that your family loves and supports you. I battled with this a lot during school, and I am sure on bad days I will continue to struggle with this. You’re not alone.

I know that you said you have big goals in life, but are you sure that those goals are ones you keep close to your heart? Because honestly, it doesn’t matter if you have goals…. If they’re not important to you those goals become something you don’t feel the urgency to work hard for.

I know that during high school, when I didn’t want to study and I wasn’t feeling motivated, a picture of my parents’ face would always pop up into my head. Honestly, my (personal) biggest reason for wanting to get good grades was for them. I wanted to make them happy and I wanted them to be proud of me. I held that desire close to my heart, and when I think about my parents I get this very odd surge of energy where I am able to push myself to work harder so that I can get an education that will allow me to have a job where I can help support them as they age. I want to make sure I can give back to them as much as they have given me. That is my goal. You see? Once you find a goal that you care about 110% or once you realize the importance of the goals you have right now, then becoming motivated will come naturally because you know you need that motivation in order to get what you desire.

I am in no way putting down the goals you currently have for yourself, it’s just that perhaps you just need to do a little self-assessment? If your goals are not motivating you, then I’m not sure if they are goals that you find to be truly important. Because like I said, goals should naturally motivate you.  

And please don’t hate yourself. The feelings that you’re going through are very confusing so don’t be too hard on yourself. Also, please don’t apologize to me for coming to me with your problem. I should be the one apologizing to YOU because I’m not sure if my answer was adequate enough for your current situation.

I want to wish you luck on both your licensure exam in September and with dealing with this. Just keep trying, be proactive and put effort into making your weaknesses strong, and don’t give up, ever.

It’s strange. I felt less lonely when I didn’t know you.
—  Jean Paul Sartre, The Flies
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